I'm not sure how much more I can seriously handle now. It feels like everyday gets worse and worse.. People are getting sadder and sadder, and I can't help but feel slightly responcible.. Being unable to help.. This shit's driving me to my last nerve, and now my grades are paying the price.. And my teacher's and parent's will probably get involved.. Ugh, life turning for the worse.. And now I have no control, and barely any sanity. Someone.. Just please... Finish it all, I'm so sick of this words can't even describe it.

I will never walk away.. I made a promise, I plan on keeping it.. No matter what.

I just.. I don't even have the ability to cry now.. I just can't.. Sometimes I really want to, but just can't... There are so many things that I need right now.. And most all I'm unable to get..

I don't just need hope anymore, I need a freaking miracle..

I GOT MY LICENSE!!!!!!!! :D

Lately I've been having some reading problems with my right eye. Nothing big, I just thought I was a little near-sighted.. Runs in the family. My mom took me to the doctor today, to check it out. Well.. It's worse than we thought. It turns out both of my eyes are horribly far-sighted, and have been since I was five years of age.. My right eye was also diagnosed with Amblyopia, an eye disease where your eye weakens because it is not used enough, and can eventually become a useless eye. It's decently rare, it only affects 1-5% of the population. My uncle has it, he's almost blind in that eye, mine's not quite as bad as his.. But it still hurts.

I get my glasses in a week.. This all really sucks.. I really could use a hug..

Enjoying nature, if but for day. Forgetting the issues in the city, enjoying the simplicity of the natural world. Away from the contact of others, with the acception of a small hiking group. Meeting almost all for the first time in my life, them not knowing of my life. It's funny, they know me, but they don't. They know what they've been told, but not what I've never said. Finding peace in natures relaxing sounds, so far away from civilization..

"I've heard of your schedule, how did you manage to find time for a hike?"

"Simple, make time."